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So here's the plan

Feb. 25th, 2008 | 07:33 pm
location: Binghamton, NY
mood: determineddetermined

So I've decided to that 2008 is going to be different than the last few. I know most people decide this in January, and call it some sort of 'resolution', but you know me, I like to do things my own way. So here's the idea, I will spend the rest of 2008 single. I mean, I'll be willing to date people, but during '08 it won't go past dating. I won't ask anyone out, I won't plan on meeting anyone's family, or any thing else related to being in a serious relationship. I've been in and out of relationships pretty consistently since high school ended, and it's about time to break that habit. There are things about myself I think this might improve, first of all my ability to meet people and social skills in general. One of the reasons I think I've had longer relationships are because I'm not a fan of trying to meet new people and I'd rather stick things out with one person then try to meet someone else. I also need to learn to handle rejection better. For as long as I can remember I've played things as safe as possible to prevent the possibility of getting turned down. Playing it safe sounds like a good plan, but it never pays out in the end. You can't impress a girl by playing it safe, you just find a good way to become her friend. I've had that happen one to many times to me. Also it might just be a good way to meet new people in general.

Life in 2008 has the chance to be pretty chaotic. I don't know where I'll live, what school I'll be at next semester, so the last thing I need is to try and worry about is keeping a significant other through it all. So I'm going to take this plan, and post a link to it in my AIM profile. This way there's no questions about my intentions, and nobody shall be disappointed. For now w/o a cell phone it's hard to meet anyone, so I'll probably need to fix that 1st, but either way I'm bound to talk to any potential dates on AIM eventually.

I haven't posted a link to LJ in AIM in a long time, so there's a chance some of you might be new to LJ. If you're bored, feel free to read on. There's not much to see, but that's up to you.

So what do you think? Good idea? Bad idea? Drop me a comment. (Anonymous is fine for those w/o accounts)

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Buffalo & Binghamton some info

Feb. 13th, 2008 | 12:14 am
mood: hopefulhopeful

So for those of you that didn't know, I applied to transfer to two different schools. Binghamton University, and University at Buffalo. BU, and UB respectively. Let's break these schools down and take a look at the options!

Here's a table showing the driving time ( as per google maps, from various locations)

Scranton, Pa1 hour 1 min 4 hours 30 mins
Newtown, CT3 hours 25 mins6 hours 46 mins
Oneonta, NY1 hour 1 min4 hours 24 mins
Mooresville, NC
10 hours 1 min9 hours 59 mins
State College, PA3 hours 35 mins4 hours 30 mins

So here's some fun facts, according to google, it's the exact same time to get from here to Scranton as it was to Oneonta, that's odd. Also interesting, somehow it's faster to get to NC from Buffalo than Bing but only by 2 mins. I never would have guessed that.

So as for location, it looks like Bing is a clear winner. Also, it's warmer.


 BinghamtonBuffaloPenn StateCornell

So I added some other schools to give you an idea why I'm going to a SUNY school. That's Penn State's IN-state tuition. I would be paying more because I'm no longer a PA resident.

Alright, as far as costs go, it's a win/win. Binghamton is about $100 cheaper, but that's pocket change compared to what I'll pay overall. And that's right, I can go to Binghamton for 3 years, and pay the same as a PSU student for 1 year. Imagine if I knew this stuff 6 years ago!


Buffalo: U.S. News ranking:            National Universities, 118
Binghamton: U.S. News ranking:   National Universities, 82
Penn State: U.S. News ranking:     National Universities, 48
Cornell: U.S. News ranking:            National Universities, 12

So, I guess this is a you get what you pay for sort of deal. I added PSU and Cornell as an example. Clearly a lower number is better, and Binghamton is much lower than Buffalo. So again, Binghamton wins.


Binghamton: Greg Marx, Chris Decker*
Buffalo: Jake Dietz*, Marco Ortiz*.

So it's about a tie friend wise. The * indicates Broome students, that applied to those schools, so there's no definite they'll be at those schools. Looking at just names, it appears to be a tie. However I've known Greg for almost 5 years, so he should be weighted heavier. Advantage: Binghamton


Well this is isn't exactly a fair category because I don't know enough about job opportunitiesin Buffalo. What I do know is that I have a friend that works as an engineer in Binghamton, also I've spoken to someone that works at BAE Systems in the HR department. She just so happens to have grown up a west sider. Apparently people bleed blue long after high school ends.

Also, my current job working with sally requires me to go to CT for a meeting every month or two. It would be much easier to keep doing that drive from Bing, instead of from Buffalo.
So for now this points heavily to Binghamton.


In the end they're both really good schools. And the minor difference in ranking won't matter 2 years after I get a diploma. I can say hands down that if both schools accept me, I'll take Binghamton. The only thing that could sway me to Buffalo would be a good chunk change, but my GPA just isn't where it needs to be for that.

So, then what happens if Binghamton says no? Ugh. Well ... we don't want to think about that. I should be almost definitely accepted to Buffalo, but do I take the first chance to get out of town? Or do I stick it out at Broome for another semester and try again at Binghamton?

If it comes down that, I think I'm going to need a case of beer and a dart board. lol, because that's how all good decisions are made. I donno, I'm really looking forward to being at the University level, but is it worth going all the way out to Buffalo? I don't know.

So when you're done wishing Kris job-luck, (if you're current with her journal) then you can send some school-luck my way, and make sure it includes the word Binghamton.

If I do get accepted, first thing I'm doing is going there and buying a hoodie. I never owned a Scranton hoodie, and BCC isn't much to be proud of, so I look forward to sporting a college hoodie. Hoody? HoodE? ... lol however you may spell it, I want one.

Please just reply with a response. Anonymous is cool if you don't have an account!

Poll #001 Choices Choices
Open to: all, results viewable to: all

Assuming I'm accepted to only Buffalo, Where should I go?

Stay at BCC and try again!
Go for Buffalo! Don't waste your time at BCC!
You're crazy, move south where it's warm!

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I miss sleeping

Feb. 9th, 2008 | 03:46 am
mood: awakeawake
music: Bush - Glycerine

So I think I've been going different phases lately.  The best times for me are when I'm just plain busy. If I've got school work to focus on, then I'm golden. But the less work I have, the more my mind starts to wander. I guess I just never really went through this before. I mean, there's been people I've missed before, but never a relationship that ended like this. Part of it is just fear. I mean, I'm horrible at meeting new people, so I'm naturally going to try and keep the ones I know around. What scares me the most is where I'll be in 6 months. Hopefully I'll be at a new school, I might be in a new city, I'll likely be living somewhere different, maybe alone, maybe with new people. I just feel like there's not enough connection between who I am now, and who I'll be then. Hopefully I'll still have the same job, and of course most of the same friends, but other than that it's a mixed bag. I moved to Binghamton for my education, and I risked a lot by doing that. I guess I've just got to consider that the risks never really end.

Ok, blah, see, sometimes I just need to shake it off, and think differently. I mean, who knows, sure I'm not going to meet anyone in my engineering classes, but hey I'll have to take some other courses next year right? Maybe there will be a cute girl in my history class, or better yet writing class. Some of the best friends I've found were in classes. Eric in Math/Shop, MinD in Math, Liz R in Math, Ashley and the other smores in writing, kris & the neary in gifted, I'm sure there's more, but it's 4am. As far as people I've dated goes ... Heather I met through Michele, Jennie I met in Math class, Shana I met at work, Leighanna I met at school, Mo I met through Nina, and then Logan I met technically at work. So somehow I manged to meet people before right?

In order to meet people and keep in touch with the old ones, I definaitly need a cell phone. I'll see what I can do about that.

Sorry for the boring randomness, but I feel better if I think I'm talking to someone other than myself. I hope you're all sleeping soundly and have more important things to do than read this.


(lol I'm waiting for my internet radio station to start a new song so I can fill in the 'music' field. Something's playing now, but I have no clue what it is)

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Feb. 8th, 2008 | 06:07 pm
mood: lonelylonely

I used to feel weird when I hadn't heard from her in a couple hours. It's been 9 days since I've heard her voice, and even longer since I've heard her say something nice.

School can only keep me so busy. =/

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Some lyrics, compliments of Jack Johnson

Feb. 3rd, 2008 | 11:45 am
mood: crushedcrushed
music: J. Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, fool

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Ok, a real update this time

Feb. 3rd, 2008 | 02:49 am
mood: stressedstressed
music: RHCP - Snow

So what's new with me? Well last week I sent applied to two schools as a transfer student. That's pretty exciting. Due to some issues with online classes, my GPA isn't exactly steller right night, so admission is really going to be up in the air. I applied to Binghamton University, and the University at Buffalo. BU & UB for short. If anyone wasn't aware, I'm still studying engineering. With my GPA the way it is, scholarships won't really be a factor for me, unless someone feels generous. I plan on attending Binghamton, unless either they don't accept me, or Buffalo decides they want to throw a couple grand my way. I'm going to attempt to find a summer internship in the Binghamton area, and if I can get my foot in the door of an engineering company then I'll definitely want to stay in Binghamton. I've got at least 2 years of school left, probably 2.5-3 if I don't want to overload myself every semester. And although 2 years sounds like a long time, the last 2 have gone by extremely fast.

Unfortunately the schools don't make transfer decisions until early april, so either I'll be getting a nice birthday present, or I'll be spending another birthday in my room under my covers. I just realized how groundhog-like that seems. Speaking of which, happy belated groundhog's day. That's right, I'm probably the only person who will ever wish you a happy belated groundhog's day, but it's just that important to me. Sadly, w/o cable I wasn't able to watch the movie today, which is usually a nice highlight. I actually like watching the movie more than worrying about what the real groundhog is going to do.

So that's my exciting news for the day, what's yours?

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Dear LJ, how are you?

Feb. 3rd, 2008 | 02:37 am
location: Binghamton, NY
mood: awakeawake
music: .977 Rock Station

LJ used to be the place to be. It was the best way for people to keep in touch over long distance/time barriers, but it's almost all but dead now. :( They apparently redid the 'friends' page, and now it only goes back a certain number of days. That's more than just a little annoying. I used be able to just keep paging through and catch up on everything.

So why come back to LJ patrick? Well, I've found myself trying to grasp for ways to fill my time lately. I'm going to try not to use LJ as a venting location, as that's not fair for the one or two of you that might consider reading this. To sum up my last week, I went from telling someone I loved them everynight before bed, to now just laying in by bed, staring at the wall hoping that I can just fall asleep already and stop thinking about what went wrong. So there you have it, my summery. Now, enough about that, so why lj? Well, in the last couple days I've realized how out of touch I am with people. I'm not one to have a lot of friends, but I used to be close to the ones I did have. If I had to make a list, of 10 of the most important friends in my life, I'd venture to say that I see at least 4 of them only once or twice a year, and others I haven't seen in over a year. The only person I see consistently is Eric, and well I live with him so that doesn't count. Next I guess would be heather and greg. I see greg maybe once or twice a month, heather maybe once a month. After that, the list of people I see in pretty empty. The katies are in europe. MinD's down south, Joey is in the middle east. I think Kris is in scranton now a days, but I'm never sure. Friends from the U I usually see twice a year, which is still pretty pathetic. With the exception of katie neary those are all people I used to see 5 days a week. (Granted it was because of school, but still)

I donno, I guess when you're with someone long enough, you set aside less and less time for your friends. It didn't seem like that bad of a thing until you no longer spend your time with that person. I've been sitting on aim/myspace/facebook for the last couple days, just trying to find people to talk to, or reasons to IM people. How do you start that convo? Oh hey, yeah we never usually talk, but I thought I'd see what you're up to. Oh, and btw I was just dumped so now I have time to talk to you. I donno, that just makes me the asshole because I couldn't keep in touch with them before.

**begin short rant**
What bothers me, is that if she's having a hard time dealing with this, she has people around that will reassure her that she did the right thing. I don't get that luxury, even if friends try saying supportive things it doesn't help as much. There's no message that will help me sleep, what's done is done and I had nothing to do with it. Why does it get to be easier for her?
**end short rant**

So what I'm trying to get at, is that I miss LJ. I miss my LJ and non LJ friends. Myspace/facebook just suck at keeping people in touch. I don't give a shit if you're a vampire who's priate ship just attacked the new york yankees. Alright, so if you've somehow made it to this point then clearly you're either someone who cares about me enough to read this, or your just mad bored and need a new hobby. So if you see me on aim, feel free to drop me a line. Even if you just want to let me know I'm an asshole, that's fine to. I could really use the conversation.

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Jan. 30th, 2008 | 09:43 pm

Anyone still out there? Thought maybe I'd check before I wrote a whole post.

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So I just had to post something....

Sep. 3rd, 2007 | 09:53 pm

Today I came across a website that was just beautiful. Not in looks, but just at what it did. Let me give you a little background first. Every time you view a webpage, information about your computer is sent to that server. The main thing to focus is that it sends your IP address. Which is just a string of numbers that is unique to your computer/network. This is nothing new. Also, for a long time people have found ways to see what area of the world/state you were in from that information. It wasn't always 100% on, but it could guess your general area. Up until today I've only seen that ability used for one thing, advertising. For example if you were to visit a site it might say, "Meet local singles in %YOUR_TOWN" Of course Your_Town would be filled in properly.

So today I'm doing some reading about computer stuff, and come across a book I'm interested in. It was one of those 'For more reading' links from Wikipedia. So there's a link to a website that contains the catalogs of 1,000s of libraries. I thought I'd give it a try, immediately the website used my IP address to give me a list of all nearby libraries that contained that book. Here's the link: http://worldcat.org/isbn/0072131780 It contains no information other than the ISBN, and yet I'm guessing it will automagically find a library near you.

You might not think that's very cool, but as a web developer I can't help but sit back and appreciate it. And FYI, your IP can only tell a website what town your nearest ISP is in, nothing more detailed than that. The only way to actually get someone's physical address from an IP, is with a court order forcing the ISP to give up your info. (Just in case I scared anyone out there)

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WB - Summers as a kid

Jul. 2nd, 2007 | 12:13 am
location: Scranton
mood: sleepysleepy

How did you spend summers when you were a kid?

Well, as I kid we didn't really do vacations. I remember only going to the beach once as a kid, and that held true until about 10th grade. Which is probably why I'm not a big beach person. My summers were fun because most of the time I lived with my grandparents, and during the summer my cousins would come visit. Sometimes for a week, sometimes for the summer, and once was permanent, lol.

I spent a lot of time on by bike as a kid, it was just my thing I guess. You never needed need to have friends, or anything to do if you had a bike, just somewhere to ride.  So I remember doing a lot of bike riding as a kid, which was good exercise, and it got me out of the house a lot. In high school I remember working during the summer, either for my dad, or other jobs. It was always a nice time to earn some money.

When I lived at my grandparents' house they had a pool, so I would swim a lot too, that didn't hold up as I got older though. I usually avoid pools, especially ones with cold water. I don't mind floating around in a raft though, that's always good times.

No matter what I was doing during the summer, it seems I rarely would get a tan. I'm usually the whitest person people know. Even more so now, because I spend a lot of time on the computer, and away from the sun.

Alright, well I don't want to bore you, but I thought I'd give this writers block thing a try. Life's kinda boring right now, so it gives me some other topics to think about. =)

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